On the surface, it may seem to everyone that you're very very nice to me but beneath that surface, I feel that I have given (in) to you so much more than what you have given to me.

I feel very very happy to have made that decision. I live happier than before and I have never had this feeling of freedom for such a long time. The truth is, I feel restricted when I'm with you. I feel tired being with you. Why? Because I'm always the one to accommodate you. When you are finally free from your busy schedule, I'll always be free to go out with you. When you are feeling low, I'll always be there to hear you out. When you want to venture into something new, I'll always be encouraging you. But sometimes, do you know that I just feel like telling you that "U ONLY HAF YOURSELF TO CARE FOR!!!!!!! Wad you wan to achieve for yourself, what you wanna do...It's all you, You, YOU and U! I'll always only fit into ur free slots rite?"

I feel I have such a low priority in your life that I'm just worth next to a meal. I'm never the main "factor" in your decisions. There's never a time when I am involved in your considerations.

When I'm having free time, I can't look for you. When I am feeling down, where are you? You have always failed to cheer me up, sometimes even becoming the one who bring me down. It may partly be that I don't tell you in words I'm sad but I thought a soul mate should be able to know.

You say you respect me and that's why you don't do things which I don't like. Your friend ask you why you are scared of me, just go ahead and play mahjong for all you want! You say no because I don't like it? I'm sorry but I have to make this clear. I hate people who gambles! This just me! If you abstain from gambling just because I don't like it doesn't make me like you more. The fact that you enjoy it already make me dislike you. The fact that you use me as a reason not to gamble makes me hate you, not feel respected. Do something because you genuinely want to, not because of someone else! Because if that person were to lose his/her importance to you, you will revert to your true self again.

In your opinion, paying for me is a form of love especially when you're not rich. I can agree to that. But pls remember that I have never ever requested for an expensive present from you. I have never ever asked you to pay for my share when we go travelling. I have never forced you to buy me a mobile phone/mp3/gadgets, not even when mine's spoiled. On the other hand, I've been all along trying to save money for you. looking out for discounts so that you pay less. Settling administrative work for you to enjoy the discounts cos you dunno how to do it. Getting free stuff/tickets for us to enjoy together. Paying for the more expensive meals that we eat out. Ask yourself, which is the most expensive present you ever gave to me? What is the most expensive dinner that you ever had wid me? So pls do not say that I did not do my part or spend too much of your money.

Not every ger can be the type who can quietly be the women behind a successful man.

At least I know i am not...