Just cleared my nm2219 paper and gearing up for the next one which is my 2nd last. Don't really feel happy about it, can't understand why! Isn't it suppose to be good that exams are ending soon? Maybe I'm mentally drained. Need to catch some sleep 1st before I continue my battle with the 1-inch thick js1101e coursepack =[ *BOO*

Actually, no offence to those who are dying under thick piles of readings, I do enjoy reading them! Just that I don't have an Einstein brain to absorp them for examination purpose so even if I have finished reading a course pack doesn't mean that I am well prepared for exams because I simply forget what I read right after I flip the page!

That's how my dear brain works! I am really forgetful and have lousy memory. Is that why I appear to be blurr cos I'm always trying to recall?

Here comes HELP: =)

Someone from RedBull just came and she gave me a newly packaged, less sweet, redbull drink which is silver-blue colour. She claim that the gold coloured ones are from thailand and have got 44% sugar level while the one that she gave me have only 27+/-% so it'll be less sweet. Well, who cares? I don't drink RedBull but will try later after my nap. She also claim that it can booast my level of concentration on studies and can keep me wide awake for 4-5 hours. I really hope so.

Anw, my intention of writing this post inspite of the very little time left for preparation of my exam is bcos I saw that my project grade for one of my nm mods was only 30.7/40! I felt quite sad frankly cos I thot my grp did well! (93.5/100 for presentation and 96/100 for report) Why did it translate to only 30.7% of the final percentage? After much thought, I realised it may be due to peer evaluation... which makes me even more sad! It means I have been given bad ratings? I thought we all worked well together? Although I may have to admit that I didn't contribute very much for the project. Maybe that's why...

I don't know why but it just made me look back at my old emotional scars left by a ex-friend who used to be very close to me (or at least I thought we were). She used to tell me about how a lot of people dislike me, my character and my working style. But why did these people appear to be 'friendly' towards me face-to-face and yet say things about me as what this ex-friend had claimed?

The truth was that, they did not!

BUT damage was still done to me. I held onto this notion that "People can be fake. They can appear to be normal (i won't even say nice!) in front of you but say nasty things about you behind your back" for a whole 1 year plus and couldn't trust these people whom I thought were fake!

Although I have already clarified with these people and I feel that I understand them more to trust them, the old past will just haunt me as and when something similar happens!


Do you know you can scar a person's emotions and screw up someone's life just by telling lies?